Wrapping up 2015 and 2016 New Year Resolutions

I'm aware I'm a couple of days late, but happy new year guys!! I hope you all had a fantastic time whatever it was you were doing.

2015 has been a tough year for me. My life is completely different to what it was on the 1st January 2015, some parts different for the better and some for the not so good.

 

I started my first proper full time job in April. Although I now know this job isn't for me and I dread getting up in the mornings to go and spend 8.5 hours bored mindless, I have learnt that hospitals and care based work isn't for me. I have met some of the loveliest people and made some real friends which has done me the world of good. I have laughed and had so much fun with some of the people I work with. They're the reason I get up in the mornings and head to work.

 

I bought my dream car!! For years I have wanted a Honda Civic but was never able to afford one. Now I am in full time work, I have managed to buy my dream car. I am still slowly paying it off, but come June/July 2016 it will be 100% mine. It makes my life that little bit happier. I have my freedom, a safe haven and the responsibility of maintaining a motor.

 

September brought me a very difficult time. I had a partial breakdown and ended up having to take time off work. My anxiety spiked to the point I was on medication to enable me to leave the house without having a panic attack. I'm now back on medication for my Personality Disorder/Depression/Anxiety and I'm becoming more accepting of the help they give me. September taught me that I need to speak out more and stop burying my issues and emotions. This period also showed me who my true friends are. I am so lucky to have such caring and loving people in my life.

 

I've had some amazing adventures this year. I visited the Harry Potter Studios with my best friend for our 23rd birthday and its something I'll never forget. I've spent time with my stepdad and brother at Centre Parcs which is one of my favourite places on the planet due to having so many happy memories there. I've spent days with my youngest brother going to the cinema, shopping and playing computer games together; time that we get to bond and have fun means an awful lot to me.

 

 

So what do I want to achieve in 2016?? A lot of these resolutions will be very cliché but all of them I truly want to achieve by this date next year. I am going to see them as mini goals to achieve gradually rather than starting January and jumping into all of them full on. There's nothing worse than giving a resolution up early and feeling guilty about it!!

 

Good deed a day

Okay, maybe a good deed a day is a bit too much to keep up with. Maybe once a week but definitely good deeds as and when I can; even if it's just smiling at somebody in the street. Earlier this year I returned a child's comforter teddy home to her. She had been distraught and I'd managed to track the teddy down as I'd seen it a few days prior. The world can be an evil place full of negativity, if I can do something every once in a while to throw a little positivity into the mix, it can only be a good thing for myself and others.

 

Weight loss

Since June 2014, I have lost a total of 2 and a half stone. 2015 has been a busy year with now working long hours which has meant that I have had to cut down on gym and sometimes at the end of a long shift, I just want to eat crap and watch trashy TV. 2016 I will continue to eat better, do what exercise I can and allow myself days off without feeling guilty.

 

Read more

2015 was a good year for reading. I have fallen in love with getting lost in a good novel. It's great for my mind to have a break from reality every now and again. The goal is a book a month if not 2 or 3!!

Blog more

I think this is going to be on every Bloggers New Year Resolutions list!! 2015 started well when it came to me blogging however after starting my new job it all went rapidly downhill!! 2016 I will write as much as possible and keep my blog work organised to get the most out of my blogging time. 

Build bridges

A lot has happened in my past especially over the past few years. I need to learn to let go of my negative feelings and build bridges with people.

Accept myself

I'm tired of comparing myself to other people. I've lived long enough believing that I'm not good enough because I'm not what the media says I should be. I'm unfollowing accounts that promote said propaganda and I'm going to attempt to start loving myself. 

Reduce stress/ stop being so angry

I'm not outright angry. I take my anger out on myself in many forms. I stress because of other people's mistakes. I stress because of things I've done years ago. I stress all the time it seems. I'm going to get back on my meditation routine and chill out in 2016.

 

Stop feeling sorry for myself

This is probably one of my biggest flaws. I don't openly feel sorry for myself by verbalising it but I spend far too many days in my PJs in my room just feeling sorry for myself. I'm going to get dressed on my days off and make the most of the days I'm given. The odd PJ day is acceptable but a whole weekend is too much for my liking.

 

Sort my future plans out

So we've figured that hospitals aren't the right career setting for me...but what is!? I plan to find out during 2016. My gut is telling me to follow my artistic/design routes even if that means heading off back to uni!!

 

See my friends and family more

I'm putting my lack of social activity throughout 2015 down to my work schedule..I'm dropping this excuse for 2016. Yes I work long hours and im tired after work but some of my relationships are starting to crumble. I'm going to make more of an effort.


So those are my goals and things I aim to have improved on throughout 2016. Hopefully by 2017 I'll be a happier more positive person because of this.